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Sunday, October 15, 2006

hey guys,d'you realise that it's been a year and 2 days since we've graduated from hua yi? one year. what a year it has been,e emotional roller coaster ride of ups and downs.disapointments, joy filled moments,moments of true fwenship have all come and gone during this past one year.
our farewell dinner was kinda erm, sad?haha, in place for a lack of better word.
had to go en mass to jp's seoul garden to have our own farewell dinner since the damn school didn't provide us with one,guess we were the only class who had ours lasst year.this year's better,the sch held a prom at cdians(this is how it is spelt i think) and, they had study leave,can don't come to sch at all if you wanted to study at home,it's like so wtf..
anyway,back to my one year thingy,hmm, fer me right, this period of time saw me working in as a fabricator right after our chalet, spending that christmas, got rejected,got another shot,got my first pair of blades?(yea,lied to her tht it is my second pair,had to appear like i wasn't tryin too hard rite?though i must admit lying is a wrong thing.)transferred to the electronic dept,that split that i had with my dad, the first chinese new year i spent overseas,then getting enrolled into sp with zhili,etc etc,there's too much to rmbr, but the point is that this past one year's been one hell of a year,with so much changes to our, my life.
Then, one year ago,i was a student preparing to sit for my 'O's, as is with everyone else. but now, i'm studyin to become an architect, starting work on my final project for this year. academically,so much has changed, no more exams, not exaclty a big hoo-ha, has to be consistent,has to deal more with card board, pencil, computers,penknife,catriage paper as compared to text books and lotsa pen and paper; pen esp,for all the writing for geog and history.
i came up with a statement for my current situation : i like architecture but i hate the work and academia side of it. everywhere i look,i just see F(s) staring back at me.
enough of whining about my course already, you guys probably heard all too many times from me.
hmm.shall say about my day yesterday?
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one word, vodkaness.
high.
ok, two words.
had pure vodka over at keith's, should had mixed it first with something else,it was too strong for me.
the throat burned.
had some beer.
den went to find shamir.
was already damn high, den we went to my house's central market there buy liquor.i got vodka & skotch.he had whisky.
head became more light headed.
dude said cigrattes would help alievate tht.
but it didn't work.
den we went back for more liqour.
dis time didn't sell to me.
even after i've played the cashier's bluff and gave her my i.c
den we went to the petrol station.didn't sell.sad.
went to pioneer mall's 7-11.
shamir went in and came out with another two bottles.
went to find another spot and drink.
talked about how fast everything has been and some catching up since our last meeting.it's surprising how effective these kinda talkin sessions can relieve stress and reinstill some sense back.
went for supper at central market.
had mince meat noodle.fried chicken wing and most imptly, a warm cup of tea.
brought the highness level down abit.
watched the chelsea vs reading match before we parted ways at 3.20?

lastly,i really like my blog song.
sorry indeed is the hardest word to say.
especially to love ones?
yea,i would think so.
it's sad that we would end up liddat.
not even a call, message or anything.
but we can't turn back time or wish that we're back in the past,
it's just logic isn't it?
so this would always be a regret for me,
for i'll look back when i'm older
and hoped that i could have handled it much better.

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